life

I've scored an interview for that internship I applied for. It's a group interview. It involves going to NYU on Friday. This might involve seeing men in tight pants. I dislike this, mainly because I like my men nice and manly, and not metro. (Yes, I'm aware that this rules out many of the guys at Columbia. And it's instances like this when I long for Illinois. There might be an overabundance of prepiness where I'm from, but at least you can tell from the back if a dude is a dude.)

There's also the issue that I might possibly be hungover on Friday morning. And by that, I mean that I kind of hope I will be. I know that sounds weird.

So yeah, I'll need to do battle with other Jewish college students, to land the internship. But my parents tell me that I'll be Queen of the Interns (a reference to my sister, who was Queen of Rehab...I can't make that kind of shit up), and their confidence in me is nice.

I still have to apply for more internships. Meh.

The whole LSAT thing is so frustrating and overwhelming that I've stopped working on it. Which isn't making the problem any easier, obviously. I've also been rethinking the whole journalism thing, which is surprising.

I'm glad I came back to NYC a week early, but I still feel overwhelmed. I don't think this is going to change anytime soon. But I also don't think that my overwhelmedness is any greater than most people's...

This past week, I did a lot of work study hours in the JTS library. Granted, I wish I didn't need to to the hours, but I kind of enjoy it. Shelving books is very zen-like and therapeutic. I'm alone with my thoughts...shelving books. Also, I really like organizing things when there is a set system that I need to follow. (AKA, shelving books and organizing my agenda is fine, but cleaning my room isn't...though my room is actually relatively decent at the moment.) I was talking with the librarian about my other job, at the Hebrew school. She was amazed that I had time for that, school, and work study. I told her that my Hebrew school gig is how I make my spending money. "Your parents don't give you money?" she asked. "It's not that they don't, it's that I don't want to ask for it. Money is tight and they're already helping me pay my tuition." I said. I think I earned mensch (Yiddish for "a good person") points with her for that (and it's not even a lie). But her pleasant surprise at the amount of things that I do/my consideration for my parents was very much appreciated. Every now and then, it's nice to know that even though I'm kind of a headcase, people think I'm a good person/on top of my shit.

I had a talk with my parents about how I am afraid that I won't get into a good law school, that maybe I should go for journalism school instead. They told me to keep all of my options open. I told them that I was afraid of letting them down, after all the support they're giving me, giving me an Ivy League education and all. My mom said that hearing me say these things, she knew that there was no way I could let her down. I needed to hear that.

In conclusion, I'm a headcase, this semester is going to be interesting, and I have more internships to apply for.

Basically, things are as they usually are.

internships!

I'm officially submitted an application for a summer internship! What is the internship? It's based at NYU and places Jewish college students either living in/near NYC or attending college there in internships in different nonprofit/Jewish internships. There are also seminars. The information provided on the website was actually pretty vague, so I hope that I get an interview so that I can ask some questions.

I also hope I get the internship, because it pays! (And I think they provide housing? That would be pretty awesome.)

I had initially thought that it would be nice to spend the summer at home, but I'm now afraid that I would be antisocial. Not that I am super social when I'm at school, but at least I would have options...and I would probably be living in a different neighborhood, which would be great. And I would be in an environment where I'd be interacting with other college students. Yay, new friends!

I have another internship to apply to, but it involves printing out an application, so I'm going to wait to do it until I get back to school.

P.S. I know this sounds totally lame, but some of the LSAT problems I've been working on are semi-interesting/engaging...yeah, I know.

coming up with titles is hard

Today I went to see Sherlock Holmes with Lia, because I hadn't seen Lia since the summer and because Robert Downey Jr. is fantastic. (My brother even admits to having a man crush on him. At least he has good taste.) There was also a brief stop in Forever 21, but since I had to pick my brother up from school, I didn't get a chance to do any real browsing. This is sad because Forever 21 is one of the few stores I can afford to shop in. Sure, the clothes are poorly made, but they're damn cheap. And some of them are skanky to the point of ridiculousness. I approve.

Later, I watched Anthony Bourdain's show on the travel channel, because Anthony Bourdain is fantastic. He was in Thailand, and he saw monkeys "with nipples that look like butt plugs". I can't even make that up. The show has a parental advisory warning for a reason: it is too awesome for small children or the faint of heart. Naturally, I approve.

The show made me wish, as I occasionally do, that I could pick up and travel to a place where the cost of living for a backpacker is super cheap. (My secret dream job is to be a travel writer/work for a travel show and get to travel with as part of the crew--I could manage logistics!) Then I remember that I am super white and will get harassed (case in point: Egypt...and that was actually pretty tame--I wasn't molested or anything). Curse you, Russian-Polish/German/British-French ancestors! (Though, not gonna lie, I AM a fan of the freckles...just not the uber pastiness of my skin.) I also remember that aside from a basic level of conversational Hebrew and a quickly deteriorating grasp of Spanish, I'm monolingual. Le sigh.

Still, it would be nice. (You know what would also be nice? Getting my Brit Lit grade!) Perhaps I can do this for a little bit the summer after I graduate?

awesome night

Tonight was fantastic. My parents and I went into Chicago to meet my Aunt Beckie (my dad's best friend's wife) for dinner. The waiter was my Aunt Beckie's friend, and he was absolutely hysterical. It was really nice catching up with her. My Uncle Earl died this summer while I was in Israel, so I wasn't able to attend his funeral. We got to tell stories about him/his family, which was very nice.

I was going to put a story here, but decided that it was overshare about my life. Which is ironic, since this is a blog about my life (theoretically). Except when I think it was overshare, it probably was. See? I'm learning self-restraint!

The point of this post is to tell you about the TV show Conveyor Belt of Love (http://www.hulu.com/watch/118548/conveyor-belt-of-love). Basically, 5 girls judge guys as they pass by...on a giant conveyor belt. Now, some of the girls seem normal (except for the fact that they are on this show). There is a blonde with a really low-cut dress who is totally desperate, and there is a short Asian girl who is really dumb and...has an unattractive personality. That's the best way I can put it. You need to watch the show yourself. My words will not do it justice.

On the LSAT front: I think I'm going to fork over the cash and take an LSAT class. But in the meantime, I am still studying (a little) from the book I got. Some of the tips are really helpful, so I'm hoping that my score will improve a bit just from reading the book. We shall see.

Now my lovelies, go watch Conveyor Belt of Love!

Happy New Year!

I'm taking a break from taking a timed LSAT exam (I know that defeats the purpose of taking the exam, but I'm also drinking classy champagne while taking the exam, so, you know, whatevs) because, despite the cloud of moping that I've been in since the end of Thanksgiving, good things HAVE been happening. As far as years go, 2009 was adequately interesting. Did I get amazing grades and get happily boyfriended? Nope. But I have fantastic friends and family, a new-found respect for my physical health/wellbeing, vague athletic ability, goals for my future, and a clear sense of self. I also spent the summer abroad, which was pretty freaking awesome. And I sure as hell have a lot of interesting stories to tell (about life in general).

In short, I am proud of myself.

In addition to the goals I made in a previous post, a goal I am going to set for myself is to be more outgoing. Like my sister. She is always meeting lots of really interesting people. Granted, some of them sound like they are nutjobs, or people I wouldn't necessarily want to hang out with. But that's more of an issue of her preference in people than anything else. And yes, she might be taller/thinner/have a better rack than I do, but if she didn't go out and do stuff, none of that would matter.

So yes. I lift my glass to you and hope that 2009 wasn't as painful as you thought and that 2010 will fulfill your wildest dreams!