alas

I have received no more grades. Maybe this is a good thing. Still, it feels like purgatory (or being trapped in an airport, or whatever). Grade purgatory. At least my grades aren't being withheld because the JTS bursar didn't get his act together and get my tuition reimbursement when he should have...yay for no holds on my account...

Christmas was celebrated with my family in Michigan, as per usual. Also as per usual, it was the perfect amount of time to be crammed in with my family in such close quarters for an extended period of time. Of course, my dad reminded us that when he was younger and lived in a really sketch neighborhood in Chicago, the apartment the family lived in was the same size. He neglected to remember that I have no friends in Michigan to hang out with. Whatever. That being said, Rachel, J.J., and I had an awesome conversation one night, so that was fun.

So I'm back home and done with my brush with Christianity for the year.

On the car ride back to HP, my dad asked me if I'd ever heard of Lafayette University. Apparently his friend's daughter goes there. I told him that Columbia once played them in football and that "they're really French". Hooray for basing my knowledge of a school solely on CUMB halftime shows! I then felt compelled to hum my part for "Stand Columbia", but didn't because it's not that great a song. (Not that's stopped me before: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ykwqXuMPsoc)

Anyways, it's my first night back, and I am insanely bored. Save me!

Right now, I'm not so keen on going back to NYC. I'm fully aware of the fact that all of my friends will also be leaving HP and returning to college. But I just don't want to go back. In the beginning of last semester, I was doing so well. School was meh, but I was living a nice, relatively healthy and balanced life. Things then went to shit the weekend before Thanksgiving and as awesome as Thanksgiving break was, I couldn't get back into the rhythm that had been working so well for me before. I've been having nightmares about not being able to handle my schedule next semester and I'm afraid that it's going to drive me over the edge. Then of course, I'm thinking about changing positions on the wind ensemble's exec board, and this one might involve more work. AND CMTS is putting on Fiddler on the Roof and I want to audition for the cast and when that fails, try for the pit orchestra, if they need French horns. But it probably won't matter because I probably won't even have time for the rehearsals. Ugh.

Basically, I feel like I am in over my head right now in school, and I don't want to go back. I've also been reading through the LSAT book...and it sounds scary and unfun and law school sounds like lots of work and I want to run away all Peter Pan-esque.

In reality, I know everything will be okay (and to that LSAT prep thing that keeps commenting, I saw your link the first time, please no more comments!)...I just wish that I had more time in between semesters...blarg.

In short, please rescue me!