goals

These are my goals for the year:

1. Go to shul more. This is actually something I have been missing for awhile. I can't explain it to someone who grew up more secular than I did. I have issues with Conservative Judaism, but I feel at home in the prayers. And if I have to put up with Hillel kids who are in a perpetual USY (United Synagogue Youth, the youth group for Conservative Judaism) reunion, so be it. I can deal. I'm good at ignoring things.

2. Care more about school. Don't get me wrong, I do pretty well for myself. But I could do better. Especially if I want to go to a fancy pants place for grad school and get a scholarship.

3. Study for the LSATs. I don't want to have to pay for a class. We'll see how this goes. I've heard law school and the work involved afterwards described as slave labor, but I think a JD would be a good thing to have. Plus, I like school and people who have an inflated sense of self-importance, so law school is perfect for me.

4. Keep training to run 5ks. This has actually been going pretty well, and I like having a goal within sight. I've actually been enjoying it so far, which is more than I can say for my past attempts at running.

5. Continue my pursuit of awesomeness. I used to be an extremely shy person who was really uncomfortable with herself. This has changed a lot, but I feel like people still see me the way I was in middle school, wearing huge t-shirts and leggings, sitting in the corner during the lunch period and reading a book...basically unable to have a normal conversation with anyone who wasn't an adult. In a lot of ways, I feel that as I've gotten older, I've become more immature. I was one of those kids who had a big vocabulary and used it. Now I feel like I sometimes spend more time goofing off than doing productive things. But this is healthy, I think. I can be a mature, fully functioning member of society when I want to but right now, I'm acting my age. I rock.

Number 5 is purposely vague. Basically, I want this year to be better than last year was. In some ways, it already is--I have a much clearer view of what I want to do with my life...or at least, the next step or two that I will be taking. This is very comforting, since I am highly anal retentive when I want to be. Essentially, Number 5 is there to remind me that I need to focus on being happy, because being happy is pretty freaking awesome.

So, yeah.